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With high school comes new opportunities. The chance to change who you are, who your friends are,
and who you're going to be. I, among all people, am going to try and take this opportunity and milk it for all it's
worth. I haven't made much of myself thus far, and I'm planning on turning that around. While most of you see
high school as one step closer to not having to go to school anymore, and an endless party scene, I see it as the time to
prove myself. Whether I'm proving it to teachers, friends, or most importantly - myself. It's difficult to find
others who have the same veiwpoint on this as me, however Becki and I were talking one night and found that we have similar
veiws. Both of us have had similar middle school experiences and as a result want the same things to accomplish throughout
high school. My "take me as I am or leave me the hell alone" personality is going to stay, I want others to prove to
me that they like me as I am. I'm tired of trying to prove myself to people, or even worse changing myself to fit other
people's desires. Whether this is successful or not I'll know that I stuck to what I believe in and that's all that
matters.
Unlike many other kids my age I have already made the decision not to give into peer pressure. I don't
like to drink or smoke, nor do I like trying to be forced to do so. I guess you could say I'm "straight edge".
This is one thing many people see as a flaw and is part of my problem with fitting in. I'm willing to sacrafice any
chance I might have had to be "popular" if it means I have to drink/smoke. You know it IS possible to have fun at a
party and be level headed at the same time. I guess it's possible for me to gain respect from others based on my decisions,
but most people are too self-centered to care about other peoples decisions. This is something that can only be cured
with maturity, a maturity that many people don't find until late into their adult hood.
I know this all just sounds like worthless rambling and you couldn't care any less, but this is me, and
I'd like people to understand where I'm coming from. Enough of this, for now.
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